as i dip a finger in the sensitive pot of life.

This is a rather sensitive post. Pfft. I'm just, confuse or wonder too much about this issue and it made me post this. No biggie though. Here's a little trend I've been catching up to, so called love triangle. I hope, I WISH I am not stuck in one. I trust him. :)

So, here's the thing. Who to blame? In one case, they ditch they spouse and went out with someone else that's either close to their spouse or some sort of "we're not friends" going on around. How do you cope with the guilt? I can't. I mean, no biggie, we're so called still young, but I won't do things that I don't want people to do to me. Its suck maaaan.

Should we blame the "third party"? What if that third party is also in the "I'm in a relationship" status zone? Who do we blame for the sucky love triangle? Who gets the blame, who gets the emotion protection from the truth?

mehlavee .

Melahvee. Hello bloggie. Miss me fellow readers? :) I know, I know. Been busy, you know. Classes are getting bumpy starts ahead. Busiest days ever. But hey, I am here now.

Here's a little in-depth sarcasm for someone.

OH heyyo. Onto the fourth victim now eyh? OHH please. I mean, you should stop victimizing your fellows. You owe them, a lot. Come on. The world doesn't revolve around you, you know. Get a grip pipsqueak. Live on. Might as well, get your butt of other people's lives. It would give peace to many souls. I bet it would. I know it would. It would give mine a piece of harmony. :))

Jeeez. No questions for that. I just love being sarcastic at times like these. Lalala~

Next, onto the boyfriend. The lovey dovey. He's losing weight. I am jealous much. I wanna lose weight too, but that is just now allowable, because according to the heart-taker, his girlfriend here is plain skinny . . . but I have huge thighs. :( But that's okay. I enjoy the food a lot nowadays. A little bit of fat cells around my arms would be fine. :)

Oh, by the way. There were these two unknown girls who just gets on my nerves, late evening yesterday. You see, I was playing in the pool with the boyfriend, Syafique, and then came this group of four girls. We, as in me and my hero climb up as it was getting late. Two of them enjoyed the water, while the other two just can't keep their eyes off yours truly. Pissed off. I'm like, uggggh. Annoyed much. I tried fighting back their annoying hawk-eyes, but they still hawked around like madd. Uggghh, what is your problem babes? Get a life.

Sheeeesh. Tak sempat la nak cakap congrats to the not-so-newly-couple. Aza and spouse. :D Sorry lah lambat. Busy bee right here. :P

OH, that's it for now. Enjoy life.

ps : I focus a lot on my Syafique ; Heart - Taker Story nowadays. (Click to read) Everything to do with the boyfriend.

Love,
Ell.

SYAFIQ, tomorrow I want your broadband ok! :) Mesti kasi. You promised sweetheart.

i love you ♥

Five Months

I love you Syafique

vividly .

Ever watched a movie with the last person you kissed?
New Moon.

What is really pissing you off?
Ignorance.

Is there anybody who doesn’t like you?
Yes but I don't care.

Do you still talk to the person who hurt you most in life?
Pfft.

Are you gonna have a baby before the time your 18?
I'm already 20.

Who has the same birthday as you?
Fabio DaSilva. :D

Favorite color?
Pink.

What were you doing at 8 am this morning?
Snoring.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
Another survey.

What is your favorite holiday?
Bali :D

Have you ever been to another country?
Pfft. Negara jiran.

What is the last thing you said aloud?
"Bye!"

What is the best ice cream flavor?
Vanilla.

What was the last thing you had to drink?
Plain water.

What are you wearing right now?
Three quarts and a simple shirt.

What’s the last sporting event you watched?
Erk.

Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone?
Nope :)

Is there anybody you wish you could be with right now?
Syafique.

Was your last kiss drunk or sober?
Neither.

Are you wearing a band-aid?
No.

Do you love anyone?
With all my heart.

Who is the last person you were in a car with?
Momma.

In the past week, have you cried?
Every day.

How often do you straighten your hair?
Never.

Are you satisfied with your life as of now?
Not much.

What do you miss most about your past?
Joyful.

Where was the last place you went besides your house?
College.

In the next 3 months, what are you looking forward to most?
A better stage of y relationship.

Is there someone who can ALWAYS make you smile?
Syafique.

If you had the chance to travel back in time, would you?
No. Never.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
3 am. Buffed.

What do you think of when you think of Australia?
Kangaroos.

Do any of your friends have children?
Akma.

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
Twenty. Sheesh.

Do people often misprounce your name?
That and misspelled too.

Missing anybody?
Badly.

happy together .

How did it all begin?
- ECO 162. Precious Miss Akidah.
Where did you meet?
- ECO 162.
Was it love at first sight?
- EhMaGod. Yes!
How old were you both?
- I was 19, he was 20.
When did you have your first kiss?
- My own little secret? :P
How long until you met the parents?
- I met them during Eid. :)
When was it official?
- 9th August 2009. 1818 hours.

THE GOOD.
Whats your happiest memory of him?
- Every memory becomes the happiest memory of him.
What is the sweetest thing he has ever done for you?
- He waited while I was in OT.
Does he buy you lots of gifts?
- I got Johnny!
Whats your favorite thing to do together?
- Talking and talking and talking. :D
When did you know you were falling in love?
- Ehmagod.
Who said I love you first?
- Him. :)
How do you know this is love?
- I knew I was deeply in love when he wanted to back away. I cried. :(
Whats his worst habit?
- Gatal :P
What annoys you about him?
- Everyone needs him as much as I do.
Has he ever hurt you badly?
- Never.
Would he ever cheat?
- I know he won't.
Has he ever cheated?
- While we were inofficial.
Do you trust him?
- Cross my heart and hope to die. LOL.

THE UGLY.
Best facial feature?
- His cheeks. His lips. His killer eyes.
Favorite part of his body?
- His chest. His shoulder. His arms.
Hair colour?
- Burgundy.
What is he wearing when you picture him in your head?
- His red tee.

INTIMACY.
How do you feel when he holds you?
- Safe. Protected. Loved.
How do you feel when you fall asleep and wake up in his arms?
- EHmagod. I want that.
How does it feel when he touches you?
- Shy. :)
Does his touch give you goose bumps?
- Sometimes.
Does he kiss your neck?
- Eh, eh, got eh?
Your tummy?
- Not yet.
Your forehead?
- Yes. :))

DEEP AND MEANINGFUL.
Could you be without him?
- I can't possibly imagine that now.
Do you think about him constantly when your apart?
- Always.
How long have you been together?
- Almost 5 months.
Can you see a future together?
- Yes. :)
Would you like to get married?
- Duuuh. Obviously.
Have children?
- Yes. I wanna have your babies.
Where can you see your relationship in 5 years time?
- Settling down? :P
Do you know there is definitely no-one better out there for you?
- Yes. He's the one.
How do you know this?
- Heart intuition.
Are you scared he might find someone better?
- He might. :(
Is he your best friend as well as your lover?
- Definitely!
Does he come first over everyone else in your life?
- Right after the love of family. You know, he'll be family too.
Would you die for him?
- Bring it on.
Whats the funniest thing you have ever done together?
- Ehmagod. Too many. :') Geeez.
Say something that only you two understand.
- Ayam jantan dengan kucing.
Do you have nick names for each other?
- Yes. Yes. Our first nick names were "Kecik" and "Comel".
Does he make you laugh?
- All the time.
Do you wrestle?
- No. We punch each other.
Is he ticklish?
- VERY!

LASTS.
The last time you saw him?
- Yesterday.
Kissed him?
- Yesterday.
Spoke to him?
- On the phone at 11 something.
The last text he sent you?
- "Yeah.. Panas gle.. Alergic sket.. Sure dmm nnt.. Pegi dlu k.. Ily.."

WHEN WILL YOU..
See him again?
- Tomorrow. Please oh please.
Speak to him again?
- As soon as he's done with his specs.
Tell him you love him again?
- Then next time I talk to him.

HAVE YOU EVER..
Spent the night together?
- Not yet. :P
Celebrated a holiday together?
- Not yet. :(
Met his parents?
- Yes.
Had naughty time?
- We're mischevious.
Made him cry?
- Yeah? I'm sorry.
Done anything spontaneous together?
- Sure. :)
Is this love?
- Yes it is. :)